It's like a pain that never goes away, and it always starts today

I was gone for so long and I was sick! (Huuuuh!) It's my first day here in the office(though tomorrow's just another operation day), and just trying to write an amazingly-blessed-and-happy-me post. ^__^

You know guys, I'm not done yet with my fighting the pain. I have this TMJ dysfunction and it really disables me to go from here to there. I also didn't have enough energy to do my Sunday Mornings Collaboration (photo shoot) for two weeks now, and also my video shooter day on our church for two weeks also!!! Huuuuuuuh to the world naman. I feel pain all over my right jaw, and on the ugats on the temple part of my head. It's really disabling! I always have a hard time sleeping and when I wake up, it's double the pain! Pain over my throat after waking up. Hahaha! I'm bored staying at home and keeping my feet only inside the house because of this sickness BUT I'm thankful for having super-daming tulog. Hahaha! Ikaw ba naman ma-bed rest e, 'di ka ba matutulog na lang? :D

Start from here, and hit play button. :)

Its Your Love

Here's what this post is all about. The things I said above explain the why I was gone for so long. :D

Cause' it's you that I'm runnin to, Baby

It's you that I'm feeling for lately and

It's like a pain that never goes away

And it always starts today

We try to teach ourselves of what is wrong and what is right. What is happy and what is sad. What is safe and what is dangerous. What is important and what is insignificant. What is true and what is fake. Do you have this observation that when you want to feed your mind about something you want to convince yourself, you end up convinced? We also attach ourselves to people who will lead us on the path we want to take without looking back and enjoying everything about that whole new life. And you end up tricked and again reading the signs of the other side on the path you are taking?  It's because of our mind's ability to select what we only want, without effort of doing such. Our minds weakness: To get what our subconscious really believe in. 

We try to kill something because it's not appropriate. We try to bury something because it's something that has no good use. We try to forget because it's all pain. What's hard to kill, to bury, and to forget is something we really can't leave without. The something we felt all the connection--mind, body, and soul.

Indeed, I'm a hard learner. And it takes someone to get in with this craziness I have when I'm on a wanderer mode. It takes only someone who stays and never gets old waiting and hoping for things to change. He may be the same person whom you want to runaway from, but he's also the same person who made you understand the unexplained, the undefined, and the unacceptable.

This is not an against all odds story. It's a story of two people who tried hard after all the pain. We both know that people won't understand any explanation we might throw them, but there's only one thing that kept us both coming back and that's enough.

I used to hate someone, and still love him after all. People around us hated/hates to see us again "together", but it's a call we just can't ignore. We are planning to set things fine before we really get in there. The very supportive busy bees of my life have this 50-50 opinion about this matter. My Mama said that after all things are fixed again, she thinks we'll end up having our vows. My Papa have the same thought, but he wants me to play safe because he's afraid to see me suffer again especially this time, when they are all away from me.

We can't celebrate enough because the things around us crumbled, pained and needed to adjust. We ain't selfish now to do and have what we only want. We know time is important, but time is what makes all in perfect place. We consider now the people we love, and who loved us. Someone needs to forgive and be forgiven. Someone needs to grow up and grow old, not just grow old. Someone needs to suyo some people. Someone needs a haircut. Someone needs to get healthy. Someone needs a prayer. Someone needs mending. Someone needs US.

We can't fully understand some things. We just can't. What teaches us to accept His plans are going to happen? It's FAITH, giving back to Him the honor and thank Him for the Grace He kept on giving us. Also, it's when you feel safe when things are right, and happier when things crumble and you are willing to fix 'em. Even for the Nth time, just to make everything fall on their proper place. :)

"Dalawa lang naman papakinggan natin. Tugtog mo, at tugtog ko." 

Hangover over The Notebook!

HOME.

Noah: Would you stop thinkin' about what everyone wants? Stop thinkin' about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want?

Noah: Well, that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am bein' an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, ninety-nine % of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelin's. You have like a two second rebound rate, then you're back doin' the next pain-in-the-ass thing.

Be Thankful Kiddo! :)

Just a recommended song here. Hit on play button! :)

Okay, how should I start? First, I want to apologize to my blog page for I haven't visited and wrote a post for I think more than a week. Second, I just want to prepare you guys for an overwhelming-oh-so-thankful-me post. And third, would you listen to the song(yea, that youtube stuff above) while reading? Thank you! :)

The past days made me feel like things are not what they seem to be, but I was wrong. Like this one time, when I thought it's the best pair of sun glasses for someone because it's his personal choice, then I found something really unusual for him, and he did like it. This other one time when I have to make bawi to someone because I really did a big mistake, and I have to do it big time, not knowing that a simple friendly smile and lambing was enough. Also this one time when I thought that this one person can't feel that I am real mad, and he mentioned he did realize it. This one time when I was really nervous that things are VEEEEEEERY shaky for the past days, and then I found myself in a place where things are right... I mean, not really right as correct, but right as what is beneficial for me.

I felt the wind on my skin and I was in a real beautiful place. I never thought things would be as good as they could be now. I never knew it would be better after the "shaky" days of this week. I was relieved knowing that people care. I'm happy realizing that things always work for the better. That nobody's perfect, and you should work on making people love the real you.

The real you laughing hard and annoyingly, the real you who don't like the taste of okra, the real you who want the Norah Jones-Michael Bubble-Ingrid Michaelson-Ellie Goulding-The Beattles-Franco type of music, the the real you who loves to write even if a few people really read it... Just be the real you and let it roll... They may remember you as someone who has this "wirdo" taste, at least you know what you want... 

***Taken from a fun photoshoot with Leeweng (my good friend), see the photos below. :)

GO DO WHAT YOU WANT. GO TO YOUR PURPOSE! EXPLORE THE WORLD! 
Given the chance to explore and see the world, it's a blessing for me to see what wonders can bring after you obey whole heartedly. I feel real joy and so energetic (woooh!) even if I should be getting real weak specially it's Friday (though it's not the last day of work day!). I always have 5-6 hours of not-so-deep sleep, and still I managed to go to work everyday, have a quality time with friends and my family after work, have my social media time before sleeping, get to catch up with my reading of the words of Him(I really try my best to get a daily dose of this, though I admit it's not a real priority. huuuh! bawi!), and have the time to think about how you can get better with all the blessings He is giving you.

I can't forget this time that I feel like I can't contain this overwhelming blessings that I am receiving. The good times, my family, work environment, the people, the good thoughts, the friends, the realizations, the kwentuhans with Tatay, my brother's birthday is fast approaching, my family who never fails to make me feel loved even if they are a thousand miles away from here, the ministry, the service, the fulfillment of having all these things even if I didn't really pray for all of them... I am very grateful! If you can just feel my heart now! hehe. ^_^

Be thankful about the good times. Be thankful about the bad times. Be thankful about the people. Be thankful about the hardships. Be thankful about almost everything, even if you think there's not a thing to be thankful for... You just have to open your eyes and see that it's a something worth more than you asked for! (cheers!)

Okay, the explanation for the song is it's just a super favorite artist, CHRIS AUGUST!!! What a sweet and cold voice! :)

PHOTOS OF LEEWENG HERE! :)