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Let Him wash your hearts

The Starting Line

If you've been my reader, you know what to do. Click on play, and listen to it while reading my post. :)

I've been enjoying talking to people these past few days. I'm reminded that it's the one (of the) real things I loved to do. To talk and let other people feel that I'm there to listen and be a friend.

After being someone whom "you" can talk to, I asked myself why I'm used to doing it comfortably. I realized that it's because my life was never easy. I've been through a lot. When I say a lot, then that's really A LOT! I practiced opening my mind to all the possibilities. I've been aggressive just to fight to what I believe is the right thing to happen. To the point that I  forget what "respect" means. But one thing I learned since the day 1 of recovery process, no matter how great our minds are, His plans will prevail. His plans will come to life.

Ever since I started to see what life means, I've always been willing to trust and risk my heart. I'm actually not the type that plans and does revenge (I've been there, done that, and I don't want to do it again), I let things go the way it impacts everything. Life is an experience of a big domino effect, and it's perfectly surprising when it happens in the end! I'm used to saying, "Okay lang yan. Hayaan mo na". I honestly do that. Why? Because I don't want other people suffer because my hands and mind planned to. I let Him do the planning and implementation. 

Many of us can't practice telling how we really feel, when in fact it's the best foundation in building good relationships. I was one of them, because I was afraid of losing the person who believes in me. But, as time passed by... It's only ourselves that we fool, and we must agree that He knows what we are thinking. That He can get us out of any situation, just by trusting Him fully. Because we fail to express, suffering comes. 

The solution I did was to cry. Cry out. Let the people who cares know that it's raining in your world. That your heart is weary. That you need a little comfort. Man can't comfort himself! Man can only convince himself that he is tired. Man can't do it all by his strength, man needs His strength. Man needs someone. He might choose you, the one who bullies you during your preschool days, some schoolmate, or a friend you use you know by name to comfort someone. Man is planted with natural ability to believe. The solution is connected to the truth that He never gets tired of pulling us up. He never does, He never did, and He won't do it. :)

Today... If your heart is weary, I ask you to cry. If you are thinking of too many things, I ask you to let go. If you can't move, I ask you to be still. Let Him move your life when you can't think of good things to make things better. Say a prayer. Get a sleep. Let your heart rest a little. I am very sure, that when you wake up... You'll have the strength to face everything... He will shower you with everything you need, only if you have decided to rest your heart, mind, and body to Him.

I still fail to do it, but when things get rough... I know now where to go. :)

Let me just tell you a story before ending this post. Early last year, I think that's April, I was crying the whole night. I was alone then. I was hurt then. Until I prayed hard, and asked Him to just hug me and let me rest because I was really tired crying and fighting the thoughts that what's happening are the things I don't want to happen. So, I prayed. I asked for strength. Until I woke up, and I knew very well that I had a real good and restful sleep. I know He did it. What's even surprising that morning was, I also knew very well that I slept on the other end of my bed, not on the (supposed-to-be) head part of it. But I woke up with a pillow on my head, and I'm on the (supposed-to-be) head part of my bed. (*u*)

If you experienced the same comfort, I'd like to know your story of it!

He is amazing! 

(Inspired after someone asked me to use my blog page in a different way. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.)

Monday morning ngiti

Everyone needs forgiveness, 
The kindness of a Saviour; 
The Hope of nations.

Saviour, He can move the mountains, 
My God is Mighty to save, 
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation, 
He rose and conquered the grave, 
Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as You find me, 
All my fears and failures, 
Fill my life again.

I'm very excited to serve and join GH! :)

My heart

...is aching. And, I'm praying for healing.

HS days again?

Hahaha! Got my new hair cut! I feel like 5 years younger! Hehehe.

Goodbye brown and wavy hair! :)

The Art of Recovery

Hey guys, I want you to not just listen to this song while reading my post. I also want you to read the lyrics after reading my post so you can fully relate why I chose this song for this blog post! God bless everyone! :)

I was not so sure how it started. Phone call? Chat? I don't know. All I know now is there's one person in this world who can fully understand me. In just a matter of two weeks, I get to realize that my life is not the hardest story ever written. That what happened to me should be a learning experience. That there's no other way but to go up. Despite everything that happened in my life. Blue prays for me. Blue had been always there, waiting for things to change. Waiting for prayers to be answered.

Blue used to be a friend. A friend I get to meet occasionally. A friend who bullies me whenever this person can. And I saw Blue that way all through the days I've known this person. Until one day, out of my want to go out and have a friend to talk to, this person asked me to go out and maybe we can just talk about everything that I am going through.

I never saw Blue biased, because we are friends. Blue always tells me that things can get better. Better in a way that God planned. This person tells me that I should cry, but I should help myself to stop crying. I still cry, yes.That's part of the learning experience. Pain is all part of this life.

Pain is an experience with a gift of healing in the end. See that smile? It's the art of recovery. 

Blue is a real good friend. I am surprised about everything this person told me about this person's life. And it's plainly a surprise. I can't imagine a story like this person's do exist. Blue is a strong and good person. Our church Pastor said, that "strong" doesn't mean a big and strong body. Instead, it's all about strong and big faith. In this person, I saw a person of faith. Real faith.

Knowing Blue at this point in my life is a big reality check of the things I've been through. It made me realize that every person is unique, and it's not all about how you see them. It's all about how you know them. I must go and move. I must never stop praying. I must draw myself closer to the one who made everything. I must honor my parents. I must love my life, and do everything out of His purpose of my existence.

I'm happy that God bless me with real good people. Good people who never would leave, no matter what. Good family that never gives up. Good life full of short comings, yet fuller with strength.

I never dreamed of an easy life. I prayed for strength, and that's all I will pray everyday. 

Your little Ms. Photog-enthusiast!

Oh What A Day

Listen to this song while reading my post! :)

Hello guys! How's your day? Today, I planned to publish this post, and it's really a great feeling for me to have this portfolio. Though it's not as great as the famous famous over famous photographers out there, I still feel amazing seeing this.

These are some of the photos I took for almost 1 year now. Using my super sweet Bammy (baby cammy), I came up with this little collection. Enjoy the gallery!

Ms. Dancer

This is Darshel, the great sexy dancer! She's actually one of my favorite friends back in college. She used to be someone I can talk about anything, and everything about school stuff. I love her being so nice. We were classmates on our cross-enrolled subject to another campus of our dear Alma mater. Our friendship developed since then. She trusts me with anything about academic stuff, and it actually helped me gain good grades. :)

Beeyankee 

Here's Beeyankee! The ever famous chick/boyish kid of TIP! She's an achiever, fighter and a great dreamer. She's the first person (aside from my family) who believed in my talent since the day we went to Baguio! We used to be friends for four years, and I witnessed her change from a kid to a little woman. I know her very well, and I love her just by being herself. :)

XY is for Xybelle

Xybelle! This is Xybelle, this shoot reminds me of the first time I did a "strangers" photo shoot. I used to know her because she's an alumni during my college days, and I guess she did not know me at all until (I dunno how she gets to know me). We just arranged to do this shoot via FB chat, and there we go! We met, do the photo shoot and had a long good conversation. I loved the moment when the sun is almost setting down, and we discovered that we are quite similar with something. (Xy, you know what I'm talking about! ^_^) 

Cosplay Lovers

Cosplayers are amazing! I'm not a fan of anime, really. But when I get to work for the company I belong now, I was exposed to them. Since then, I get to familiarize myself with them! They are colorful, fun, and happy people! They are happy with just portraying the characters they want. They are the kid-at-heart people whom you can ask to sit over a pavement, corridor, or somewhere and have a completely amazing time talking about their stuff. I didn't intend to do a photo shoot like this, it's just because we needed to create a portfolio for one of our products. 

One thing I enjoy about my work is being flexible. I don't just sit inside the office and do my stuff in front of my laptop, I also get to meet different types of people and do my passion without me intending to really do it during work hours! Sooo amazing! :)

Ms. Personality

The super ganda and super funny Jem! She was introduced to me by my friend, Grace. She's my fan! Hehe. It's really overwhelming that someone appreciates the simple things you do. And I thank God for blessing me with people who wants to be a part of the talent He has given me. :)

Ms. Lee

The gorgeous Lee. Lee is my friend, through thick and thin. I celebrate my birthday on the 3rd day of the first month of the year, and she celebrate hers on the 4th day on the same month. How was that? We are the Capricorn ladies! I'm always a fan of her looks on my cam. She's got that powerful and soulful eyes. 

I love Lee-Weng. She is beautiful, kind, and cooks good food! :)

My Guys

This is Pareng Jay, Tian, and Popoy. Just another "laboy" photo shoot at Intramuros, UP, and Wildlife respectively. They are my very "bait" friends. Love them to bits! :)

This is Momii (I spell it that way because we use to cal her Mii for Romi, and now she's my Momii...) The ever sweet and maalaga. I want her hug. Really! Hug me again Mii! Love you and Miss you po!

Rocker!

The typical gig attendee. My Ate Nisa. :)

Madam S

My favorite. My bestfriend. My bebegel. My shoulder to cry on. My supporter. My counselor. The best person I want to talk, laugh, and do nothing with. :)

Kiddos!

The kiddos! It's a shot from a photo walk at some park around Quezon City with my good friend Kuya J. Kids do enjoy little things, how I wish everyone our age find enjoyment with little things. :)

The "laboy" kids of Intramuros walls. And yeah! They're really cool!

Colorful!

Birthday of a kid! :)

They call it "selfie" ^_^

A shot by Kuya J.

I've always dreamed of being best at any craft. And so, I'm getting back to working on it. Whatever God gives me, I'll use it to serve Him. :)

The Good Life :)

Good Life by Tyler Ward ft. Heather Janssen

Play this song as you read my post. Enjoy! 

Since this is a debut post for my new home, I'll keep it personal so I can share more about me. ^_^

I'm your Little Ms. Pinkish. My new home's name says it all. I'm "Little", I stand 5ft (I think?). Haha! I'm a "Ms.", single and happy. I'm "Pinkish", I'm inlove with everything that's pink and cute!!!

I'm a God's daughter, I (will be going back) am a video shooter on our church, and I love the people there! We actually moved to a new building, and I'm excited to meet the new MEDIA OFFICE! Woohoo!

I'm a cammy girl. I have the best starter camera (best 'cause it's a gift from my parents) that I want to be baptized and let "her" have a name. Any suggestion? She's really a great camera. I'll post some of the photos from the collaboration I did with my friends, and some sideline soon. :)

I am a healed warrior. I'm proud of that. I still continue to fight because He never fails to make me feel that I am loved. I thank Him for all the help He gave me when I was in the darkest part of my days. I just get back up, and I'm about to continue a whole new life. A whole new me. :)

They say, "Be the person you want the world to see". And so, I'm working on it. I just want to be ME, more and more, nothing less.

What keeps my feeling good everyday for the past week is the song with this post. IT's my all-time favorite. Hope you like it too! It's not the original version, but it's the most uplifting version that converted the whole song to what we should feel after listening to it.
(Here's a secret, I'm in love with Tyler Ward! He always smiles. ^__^)

Here's a super nice collage I made from my super cute and amazing phone.

The first photo is a set of the new buddies I'll put on my table. They look really cool. Right? Each character gives me a sense of happiness, and I call them Mr. P-One, Mr. P-Two, and Mr. P-three. Mr. P means Mr. Pink!!!  So predictable. Hehe. (laughing!!!)

The second photo on your left hand side is the newly painted nails of your Little Ms. Pinkish. I chose to use gray because I'm planning to put pink color on the other half of each nail. So watch out as I'll post about that some other day.

The third photo is my sweet sweet sweet partner to stay awake while writing my debut post. So, you want some? Sorry, I believe I consumed almost all of it but I saw my sister eating the last bite! (wink!)

And the last photo on the right side is me with my super "kulit" sister. She's the best sister in the world. Even if she annoy me sometimes, I love how she tames me whenever I'm mad. She's sweet. She cares when I cry, when I'm hurt, and when I say something... she listens. :)

She'll be leaving on the 29th, and (maybe) we'll meet again by December to celebrate Christmas, New Year, and our birthdays on KSA!!!

I feel really grateful about everything now. Feeling good about going back to work, and feeling good about the changes that's happening. I don't throw out the "old" me, I admire her for her courage and she's my inspiration to pushing this life I have now. The good life. :)